Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The Dark Night of the Soul

On a dark night,
Kindled in love with yearnings--oh, happy chance!--
I went forth without being observed,
My house being now at rest.

In darkness and secure,
By the secret ladder, disguised--oh, happy chance!--
In darkness and in concealment,
My house being now at rest.

In the happy night,
In secret, when none saw me,
Nor I beheld aught,
Without light or guide, save that which burned in my
heart.

This light guided me
More surely than the light of noonday
To the place where he (well I knew who!) was awaiting me--
A place where none appeared.

Oh, night that guided me,
Oh, night more lovely than the dawn,
Oh, night that joined Beloved with lover,
Lover transformed in the Beloved!

Upon my flowery breast,
Kept wholly for himself alone,
There he stayed sleeping, and I caressed him,
And the fanning of the cedars made a breeze.

The breeze blew from the turret
As I parted his locks;
With his gentle hand he wounded my neck
And caused all my senses to be suspended.

I remained, lost in oblivion;
My face I reclined on the Beloved.
All ceased and I abandoned myself,
Leaving my cares forgotten among the lilies.

-- St John of the Cross

3 comments:

Sophia said...

Thanks RM-I love this poem.

I have an appt for next Tuesday with our rector to explore ways I can serve the community now as well as broach exploring a possible switch to ordained ministry in TEC....Please pray that the conversation will be fruitful and lead to good things, and that if this is God's dream for me that the doors open there.

Deb said...

Sophia..
I will be praying. I know all too well how hard it is to wait and wonder.

My prayer is for God's place and timing to a congregation who needs and wants you.

From me...

I have been working through my anger and frustration. My Spiritual Director suggested none too gently that by keeping my anger 'hot' I am only choosing to verify the prejudices of those in leadership.

So... As I pray and ask for clarification of my next steps, I have been releasing anger, knowing peace on a deeper and deeper level.

Prayers for visiting family this week appreciated... I will be with my mom (of 90 years) and some very toxic family members. I WILL be having fun - I'm taking only ONE textbook to read on the plane. And I plan to play hard at the OSU-Michigan game. :)

Journeying and believing in the Light of truth even in the darkest places...

Deb

Mary Beth said...

Wow...praying for you both.

Deb...your mom is 90?!