Lay me on an anvil, O God.
Beat me and hammer me into a crowbar.
Let me pry loose old walls.
Let me lift and loosen old foundations.
Lay me on an anvil, O God.
Beat me and hammer me into a steel spike.
Drive me into the girders that hold a skyscraper together.
Take red-hot rivets and fasten me into the central girders.
Let me be the great nail holding a skyscraper through blue nights
into white stars.
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love, love, love this. This prayer, and this website. Thank you for it, Jen!
Our counseling session went really well and the counselor seems very good, someone Ken can trust and respect. (He'd been afraid it would be like a demo of Imago Therapy we'd seen at church - holding hands, facing each other, taking turns talking...we may get there at some point, but that is very not him!!)
It is painful to realize my part in our difficulties, and also shocking to us both, how our childhood baggage is still following us. I've been in therapy off and on for ~15 years, I keep thinking I will be all fixed soon! :)
Thanks for your prayers, and for being a safe community of support.
Mary Beth, remember it is a spiral journey. We come to the same material over and over, but our perspective on it changes. Be patient with yourself and with Ken. Blessings to you both.
A spiral journey ... what a wonderful image! Thanks for that. I feel like I've been going around in circles on some issues lately, and it helps to think of it as a spiral instead.
Oh, Mary Beth, I'm so glad it went well and you have a good person. We have tried couple's therapy a few times but never found anyone decent enough to stick with.
Many many prayers for you and y'all. (((Mary Beth)))
Continued prayers for Mary Beth and Ken and their counseling.
Spiral journey is a good image Songbird, sometimes in my journey it has been a spiral with a roller coaster ride inclded. But that is my journey. I like your thought of being patient with yourself too.
This may be a hard comment to read for some, but these images are hurtful. This praises suffering which was not God's intention for us.
I shudder to read a prayer to ask to be beaten, burned, and brutally hammered into a shape. The God that Jesus told about would also shudder to be asked to do this brutal thing to us...I see no love, forgiveness, or a loving Creator here. I see masochistic suffering. The God that Jesus worked with and taught about was not like this.
As imagery it is confusing. Would we even think of hurting ourselves this way? If so, what would we do to others?
Where is the love and forgiveness?
Where is the fact we have choice?
God doesn't use force, for love never does. If God reflected back what we are, or have done, we'd not be here....except God is a loving God not One to cause suffering...we do that.
I have no doubt the intention of the posting was in a different vein, but I would never beseech my loving God to torture me...even in imagery.
If God loves me, all of us, wouldn't God be wondering what who on earth He is to us?
I wrote a poem a while back(published) about God's thinking about what's happening on this earth. Take a look ..."Just Who Am I?"
I also just posted thoughts and a poem about children.
I do hope you will post this...it's honest thinking on my part and hard to post. But, I must be true to the Lover of my soul...God! I know full well you are too, so am stepping out in faith and love for me, for you, and for God ...but this threw me a curve.
Peace be within us all!
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